Chapter Seven - Love & Loss
The person that shows me the best example of love is my mother. She has cared for me and my sister for close to twenty five years and loved through all of it. My mother was there for me, everything even when she didn't want to be. When I was in the hospital she would sleep on the chair next to my bed. When I was being cut open she was right there next to me holding my hand. When I was changing bandages on my gruesome sours she was there even though it made her feel ill. My mother is a very strong person who would never give up on us. She will also love me no matter what I do with my life. She never pressured me into making decisions and let me be in charge of my own life. She's a great role model because no matter what life puts her through she always gets back up and ready to fight.
One circumstance where I have risked loving someone was when my uncle married someone and we brought him right into our family because he was rejected by his own. We would bring both of them on vacations and we grew to like his partner more and more as we got to know him. They lived in Toronto so we would go up there to see them every so often. The marriage was unsuccessful and ended in a divorce it was quite messy so my uncle in law moved to our town because it was cheaper than owning your own house in Toronto. We slowly stopped talking to my uncle and just became friends with my new one. In the end I risked loving a new family member only to lose an old one. The main thing that helped with the lose of that relationship is that my whole family was going through the same thing as me only with the other uncle. Its alot easier to get over something if you can talk to someone about it. I would agree with the statement that it is better to have loved and lost than to never have loved at all. I agree because that time when you have that love is going to be some of the best times of your life. You are also guaranteed to love someone either as a friend, family, or as a lover. It is also inevitable that you will experience love in your live so dont fight it.
I have learned that I don't let my self love people as much as I should. I also learned that I hold back my emotions to avoid being hurt by the other person. I also learned that the people you love will typically stick around for a while so choose who you love carefully. The main thing that I have learned through losing those I love is that it is strangle easy for me to get over it very quickly. When my grandfather died I got over it almost instantly because I just saw it as there is nothing I can do to change this so i didn't focus on it and continued with my own life. The thing I love most about myself is the ability to get past losses and just keep going. The thing I hate most is that I don't try hard enough to find love or even express it to the people that I do love
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